a view from Barcelonas windows

" Barcelona here we come...one more week...yeyyyyyy!"

Asta se intampla acum vreun an jumate. Cand inca eram cu el.
Eram nerabdatoare, entuziasta, encore un voyage! Allons y les enfants!
Si Barcelona e fantezista, aventuroasa, misterioasa ca o dama in rochii haute couture. Are culori halucinante, parcuri magice si catedrale majestuoase. Am iubit Sagrada Familia : atat de salbatica, de libera, de fara griji, de ... ma doare la basca! Apoi casa Battlo, the bones house it just felt like pure magic. So majestic! I remember walking on that hot roof, imagining battles with dragons and glorious sunrises. Hard rock café, plaja, strazile aglomerate si Rambla. Mimul.
Daca aveti ocazia sa vizitati Barcelona, nu ezitati. Este un oras viu, minunat. It's not my cup of tea but this doesn't make it less wonderful.

Dar Barcelona este si extraordinar de fierbinte, in sensul rau al cuvantului, foarte aglomerata, scumpa si fierbinte.

I left something in Barcelona. A part of me died there. I couldn't grief until now. But now it is gone with the wind. I used to think that you have to earn love, that love has to be earned, that you have to suffer in order to be happy, that you can be humiliated in the name of love, that it's ok to look at yourself as a sinner and to be in pain and feel ashamed about yourself. But there was a voice in my head which was telling me that this is not ok, this isn't love. When you love someone you forgive. The past doesn't matter any more. It's just the present and the future. What in your life made you so miserable that you needed to smash my soul out on the ground? I've never felt more alone while being with someone in my entire life! I felt alone, depressed, I lacked confidence in myself, I lost myself, I chalked my words so you could feel better. I put myself in a box so you could feel better!
Now I am living again, on my own and I am happy or sad but I know that the result is the sum of my actions. And it feels good. Because I know that love is freedom and confidence and joy and celebration and colors!




So , yes, I died a little bit in Barcelona. That's why it's not my first top city.

no se puede vivir con tanto veneno...




ai avut sanse nenumarate sa vorbesti cu mine dar ai ales sa taci.
acum vorbesti dar e tarziu in timpul nostru iar eu sunt obosita.
cuvintele tale cad metodic ca niste cutite.
iar eu am nevoie de liniste, linistea sa cada-n mine.
aseara a trecut celine pe la mine, am povestit, am jucat un joc, am ras, m-am simtit bine.
cred ca pot redeveni ceea ce am fost daca sunt lasata in pace. asa ca... don't speak.




eu sunt multumita cu ceea ce am trait impreuna. impacata cu sfarsitul. people come and go.
am invatat multe in acesti ani.
cred ca cel mai important a fost how to let go si cum sa nu mai imi fac rau.
sa spun ce ma deranjeaza cand ma deranjeaza.
it's all ending we gotta stop pretending! de fapt, deja s-a terminat.
daca si tu ai invatat macar un lucru in tot acest timp; eu sunt fericita.
poate ca la un moment dat drumurile noastre se vor intersecta de nouveau. on sais jamais!
but now you have to let go, because you're hurting me.



"What was here now is gone
Up and down like everyone
Walk the earth in lonesome cry
But when the sun comes up
When the sun comes up
It will be on your side."

and I`m just trying to...

survice...nana staying alive.



work,work,work...

noroc ca El e aici...

vine vacanta cu avionul din Spania, o simt, se apropie, simt miros de mare!!!

pana atunci...staying alive, mai sunt 2 saptamani.