this is the life

day 6

astazi e ziua 6 la noul meu loc de munca. in Wissembourg. medicina interna. pentru urmatoarele 6 luni. miroase a moarte, a viata, a esec si victorie si neuroni munciti.

miroase a medicina organica. a corp si secretii umane.

a furtuna incinsa care se injura pentru ca nu a invatat la timp ce trebuia sa invete. mama ei de viata mai furtuna...ce faceai tu cand trebuia sa inveti toate lucurile astea?...well...dreaming my life away.



well now it`s over. stop dreaming. start working 6/7 days.

spanac cu cartofi fierti. peste fara gust. branza topita cu usturoi si piper ( cine serveste asa ceva la pranz???). uree. creatinina. apa. troponine. dementa. elastic de par. telefonul suna. angina pectorala. nu am timp sa raspund. branza topita cumparata impreuna cu el. urgente. alearga. gandeste. neuronul se aprinde. lumina se stinge. echographie cardiaque. sperante de mai bine. frica de imediat. garzi. suna alarma. fuga. 3 ore de somn. nu mai beau cafea. m-am lasat de o saptamana. nu o sa mai beau decat in vacante si la ocazii speciale. nu. garzile nu se pun ca si ocazii speciale. si nici diminetile cu fundul in sus. am nevoie de un uscator de rufe. tenul meu incepe sa isi revina. trebuie sa invat sa merg pe bicicleta. co-interne sympatique. penny. match. lidl. 0 money. fuck the french water it makes my skin dry. haine spalate. miros de primavara. haine intinse balcanic prin camera. ca la tigani. nu mai am femeie de serviciu. trebuie sa imi fac singura curat in camera. traagedia. azi am facut curata. sunt stoarsa de energie. trebuie sa ma intorc la spital.





praf in gura. praf in ochi. dooooooooooooor de mare. mai visez la barcelona din cand in cand!

one of my fav placebo songs...



"Every step we take that's synchronized
Every broken bone
Reminds me of the second time
That I followed you home

You shower me with lullabies
As you're walking away
Reminds me that it's killing time
On this fateful day"



blue american



I wrote this novel just for you
It sounds pretentious but it's true
I wrote this novel just for you
That's why it's vulgar
That's why it's blue
And I say, thank you









a very old one

marea nevazuta

pentru ca unii oameni au darul de a vedea minuni in lucrurile si fenomenele care ii inconjoara. E atat de frumos sa iti deschizi ochii mintii si sa vezi dincolo de aparente. Intr-o zi ploioasa te poti bucura de picaturile perfecte si translucide de ploaie. Intr-o zi friguroasa mintea e mai ascutita ca oricand. Sa nu mai vorbim de minunatii fulgi de zapada. So stop bitching about the fog and the rain and the cold and the people and the "problems" and just enjoy the ride! In fond, suntem responsabili de propria noastra fericire , suntem ceea ce vrem sa fim. Iar viata noastra se modeleaza si construieste dupa trairile noastre interioare, chiar daca noi nu constientizam asta. Degeaba ridica multi sceptici din sprancene cand aud de optimism si de puterea gandirii pozitive. Este adevarat! Culorile vindeca, gandirea pozitiva la fel. Oamenii frumosi, cu mintea limpede care ne inconjoara ne ridica. Trebuie sa cautam clarul, frumosul, pozitivul in ceea ce ne inconjoara. In fond, minunile ne inconjoara, trebuie doar sa avem sufletul deschis pentru a le putea vedea.
Via "Dulapul cu vise" am descoperit marea nevazuta :) M I N U N A T!

"The unseen sea" by SIMON CHRISTEN :

The Unseen Sea from Simon Christen on Vimeo.

"Steaming city" by SIMON CHRISTEN :

Steaming City from Simon Christen on Vimeo.

Morcheeba - "Enjoy the ride"

radio ballet

let`s go get lost,let`s go get lost....

on va se voir a Paris, cherie!
















we`ll dissapear there...TIM!

primul salariu:)

sambata 27 noiembrie 2010 am luat primul salariu.
ohhhhhh, the pride :)
si apoi m-am tot intrebat ce sa fac cu el? asa ca mi-am luat un parfum dar nu din moft, efectiv mi s-a terminat parfumul. si apoi o sa pun bani deoparte pentru masina. din ce mai ramane o sa le cumpar alor mei cadouri de Craciun si mie o caciula imblanita, din aia cu urechi:)plus ceva pentru El si pentru toata lumea draga mie si carti,carti,carti...de Medicina:)
e excelent sa ai banii tai dar...cand au trecut anii?
si odata ca banii au venit si responsabilitatile,ceea ce e firesc.
uneori ma gandesc ca poate am schimbat o specialitate pe bani. si atunci ma simt prost si am regrete si ma doare inima. dar ce as fi facut acasa cu o specialitate si tot pe banii alor mei? nimic. asa ca sometimes we have to choose.
asa ca m-am hotarat. o sa mai dau o data examenul de rezdentiat in Franta.mai ales ca nu am nimic de pierdut. daca iau tot mf mi se recunosc stagiile.
the real battle begins now!

immigrant punk!

"Yesterday, there was so many things
I was never told
Now that I'm startin' to learn
I feel I'm growing old


'Cause yesterday's got nothin' for me
Old pictures that I'll always see
Time just fades the pages
In my book of memories
Prayers in my pocket
And no hand in destiny
I'll keep on movin' along
With no time to plant my feet


'Cause yesterday's got nothin' for me
Old pictures that I'll always see
Some things could be better
If we'd all just let them be".

Immigrant punk! People...I`m moving. To France. In Strasbourg. You can come visit me anytime you want.

I don`t know where I`ll stay!

I`ll do some cs at the beginning, maybe a youth hostel.

Do I know someone in Strasbourg? No.

Do I have enough money to make it trough? Probably not enough.

Will I make it? Yes, of course :)

Ce imi place mie? Printre altele...gogol bordello...stiu, nu multi gusta genul asta de muzica dar pe moi ma binedispune instantaneu, de la primele acorduri. Face parte din muzica mea datatoare de energie si cum pana acum nu am postat nimic despre ei...there you go, ladyes and gentlemen: Gogol Bordello!

"Legalize me! Realize me!
Party!

Of course we immigrants wanna sing all night long
Don't you know the singing salves the troubled soul?
So I'm relaxed, I'm just lurking around
I got a method and you don't
You got a dictionary kicking around?
Look up the immigrant, immigrant, immigrant punk!"



Si acum melodia mea preferata punk rock of all times...pam pam...introducing WONDERLUST KING by Gogol Bordello:



"Back in the day yo as we learned
A man was not considered to be
Considered to be fully grown
Has he not gona beyond the hills
Has he not crossed the 7 seas
Yeah, 7 seas at least!

Now all them jokers kept around
Just like the scarecrows in hometown
Yeah, scarecrows in hometown
From screen to screen they're travelin'
But I'm a wonderlust king

I stay on the run
Let me out
Let me be gone
In the world's beat up road sign
I saw new history of time...
New history of time!!!

Through Siberian woods
Breaking up their neck

Chinese moving in building discoteques

Homemade sex toys and whatnot
Yeah, and why not?
Well at least it's something different
From what they got in every other airport

I traveled the world
Looking for understanding
Of the times that we live in
Hunting and gathering first hand information

I traveled the world
Looking for lovers
Of the ultimate beauty
But never settled in
I'm Wonderlust King!

And presidents
And billionaires
And generals
They'll never know
What I have owned!
What I have owned...
I'm a wonderlust king!"

Supertheory of supereverything!!!!!!! By the same Gogol.



"From the maelstrom of the knowledge
Into labyrinth of doubt
Frozed underground ocean
Melting - nuking on my mind

Yes give me Everything Theory
Without Nazi uniformity
My brothers are protons
My sisters are neurons
Stir it twice, it's instant family! "

A propos de frenezia nuntilor...



Despre realitatea in care traim:

"It is easier to see
Evil as entity
Not as condition inside you and me
I did not invent it, I'm just in charge of it
Simple businessman with simple practical plan

So do you wanna be a model, yeah?
All you got to do is show up, wow!
We'll be leaving soon for the breaking ground
For there will forever be slavery
There forever be cruelty

There forever be wretched of Earth
Crawlin' up round driven by last semen drop
Factory that makes you, they say, it never stops
Factory that makes them, I know, it never stops...

So do you wanna be a model, yeah?
All you got to do is show up, wow!
We'll be leaving soon for the breaking ground
For there will forever be slavery
There forever be cruelty

In this game they'll always be on the top
and it's up for you to learn or not! "



Sally...


Imi e frica? Un pic asa...

De fapt imi e inima stransa fiindca El nu poate sa vina. Dar va veni si El, o sa luptam pentru asta:) Punk revolution just began!