Luxembourg

Luxembourg is warm, happy, beautiful, coloured and chilled. I really, really loved it. People are smiling, are helping and they seem to be very happy.

Luxembourg is a state of mind, it's a statement. A statement that hard work, good manners and smiles can work. 

Luxembourg is peace. Street singers. Art. Cosy restaurants.

Luxembourg is coloured umbrellas and an awesome happy friend. Luxembourg is a smile!

They don't know how to fix a  strawberry Mojito but they sure have some fine chocolate (hot chocolate + brownie @ "Chocolate house" just in front of the Palace = heaven).

It was a perfect mini holidays, laughing 'till the end :)

I mean you loose some and you get some in exchange. The boy I liked ... it just didn't happen but on my way back to Strasbourg I met a lovely 58 years old jewish lady with Parkinson disease. The essential is not this, the essential is that this woman has a gift and despite her disease she has been blessed by life with 2 wonderful kids and lots of travels. One researcher and one midwife. The researcher is living in Japan, he's married with a Japanese lady and they have a 5 years old son. The great great mother of the Lady is alive and kicking it. I'm going to Japan next year with a friend. The husband of the midwife is a cardiologist with whom I work a lot but whom I've never met in flash and bones. The midwife is pregnant and I am invited to the circumcision ceremony of her son. Shalom I say and mazeltov! 

She said that there are no hazardous encounters in life and I believe she's write so Mazeltov!

On the other side they don't really have hippies/alternative people or maybe they were very well hidden...they were kind of stiff.

This is Luxembourgs song and Luxembourgs photos :

I really, really liked their idea with the colored umbrellas. Apparently there is the same in Portugal so I'll go see by myself with my friends. So, next trip : Portugal! Oleeeeeeeee!

Lik

unicorns

F : "People like me are special. I think I'm special!"
Moi : "Yeees, you arrrre! "
F : "And rare!"
Moi : "Very! :))"
F : "Like unicorns"
Moi : " °_0 :)))))))))))))"

Did I say I love my flatmates?  When you get this WTF just happened feeling day by day! 

Contract

This is the part when I say thank you. Thank you to all my friends who are always there for me. You lift me up when I am down (you know it's rare but when I'm down I'm really like 10 feet under). You make me sing, dance, smile, dream. You are  always there. Even if we are scatered all over the world.

Yesterday we celebrated me getting my dream job. And they were warm, happy, optimistic and just...perfect people! I wouldn't change a think about them! So we went and danced the night away. They made me forget some pains and made me a super nova! Hei, I even drunk beer! At 6 AM I was coming back home with M. and the birds were singing. The quiet was soooo perfect. And we stopped, hugged and said : "This moment is perfect!". So I am writing it down in order not to forget it. We know each other for like 6 months but we are...we know each other! He's my brother from another mother. 


" If it's one thing that I've learned over the years is that it only takes one person, one patient, one moment to change your life forever. To change your perspective, color your thinking, to force you to reevaluate everything you think you know. To make you to ask yourself the toughest questions : do you know who you are? do you understand what had happened to you? do you want to live this way?" 

Yes, I want to live the life that I am living. I am happy with my choices. It was a long way 'till here. 

I don't know how long I will stay but I know that I will do my best every day to improove. 

Give and never give up! 

Unafraid givers this is what I love the most!

My first bottle of champgane opened by moi (it was a long process, but nobody was hurt! :)

happy

I just love this song. It's difficult not to share a smile when you're listening to it. If I am at home I instantly start dancing. It comes naturally. Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth.

Face asteptarea mai dulce. Pentru ca uneori asteptarea este...lunga. So I just go in my world of fantasies...
Curios cum o seara poate schimba totul. O intalnire cu un irakian muzician, cu vreo 40 de ani mai in varsta decat mine dar cu un suflet de copil! Om frumos si vesel, cu maini magice. Om colorat, om daruit. O m care daruieste si imparte fara regrete. Om care traieste ca si cum maine nu exista. Om care traieste numai si numai in prezent. Cate putem sa invatam de la cei din jurul nostru, este minunat!

Ne facem rau cand criticam. I thought that you were nice but  you were otherwise...

Ne facem rau cand ne agatam de lucruri materiale, cand ne agatam de oameni. Daca cineva decide sa iasa din viata ta inseamna ca nu a trebuit sa fie acolo de la bun inceput. Daca ai invatat ceva din pasajul lui/ei esti norocos. Daca ai reusit sa faci sa tresara ceva in inima celuilalt chiar si pentru cateva minute/zile...e bine; esti bine.

Ochii care nu se vad se uita, din fericire, uneori. Noroc ca Dumnezeu a lasat uitarea pe acest Pamant.
Oare este adevarat ca vezi in jurul tau ceea ce vrei sa vezi? Ca ceea ce esti tu in interior se reflecta in jurul tau? Pentru ca atunci e bine...vad oameni fericiti si dornici sa invete, sa se dezvolte, vad copii in corpuri de adult, vad soare, cer albastru, copaci infloriti, piete de duminica, biciclete...cam asa.

El a fost in Franta dar eu eram la Berlin. Ne-am ratat la cateva zile distanta. Nu a fost sa fie nici de data asta. Dar e OK. Suntem OK after all this years we both healed. And we both grow up in the persons that we've wanted to be, and strangely we did not grow apart. I wish you luck, sun, smiles and love sailor!










Deci e Primavara :)





Meanwhile in Berlin :

berlin

I love Berlin because it reminds me of how easy and pleasant life's actually and about how we are complicating it!

Before going to Berlin I was not in a very happy place : work, friends...people...I was feeling kind of confused and lost in translation. I was in such a hurry all the time, I didn't have patience anymore, I wanted answers and I was getting kind of radical which is sort of not me. And the worst part is that I've almost stop dreaming my life away.

So I kind of spontaneously decided to go there. Berlin wasn't even on my wishlist of cities that I wanted to visit. But I had a friend there and I was kind of curious so...there I went.

First of all Berlin is relaxed : smiling people everywhere with a beer in their hand, chatting outside in the sun, with their dogs (with no leash!) just sharing some smiles, exchange some ideas.

Second : every person that I've been in contact with spoke perfect english!

Fear cand hold you prisoner. Hope can set you free.

So I kind of new that even if I get lost (which was often the case :) I will akways find someone to help me.

Big monuments, large avenues, good food and drinks and partyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! It's amazing how on the same street you can have a russian, a thai, an italian and a pakistani restaurant. You get to see a metal bar next to a latino club and it's all cool.

Also everybody is smoking in bars and clubs. Which bothered me at the begining but reminded me of Cluj. So it was cool. I danced and laughed and shared coffee and food with people met randomly on the street. People tried to sell me weed  and I even got mistaken for a prostitute (because I was wearing high heels) which is kind of funny (years for now I will laugh with L. : hey do you remember that time when I came to visit you in Berlin and I was mistaken for a prostitute? Yes, it was funny!). People where simple, dressed in black and not dressed to impress, happy, with lots of tattoes, mohawks, funky, funny, colored, of all types, spanish, italians, turkish...

Someone told me that in Berlin are more architects than cab drivers. 

No one screams, no one runs, no one is rude. At least the people that I've met.

They say that you see what you want to see. That what you see is a reflection of you. I've chosen to see the beautiful in Berlin, the alternative, the good coffee and the smiling people. Peace. Because the rest is not important.

I got scare tissue in Berlin. I got better. It will always be my happiness reminder with his squats, his music, the people. It's true that a friend in need is a friend indeed but a funny sarcastic friend with a big heart, beer and a lovely top flor apartment is better.

I mean it's simple : viata e frumoasa si nimic nu merita regrete. So just do what you feel like doing and don't regret it. Regrets just complicate life and don't solve anything. Don't look back in anger. Live in the moment because you never know if you'll still be there for the next moment. And dream, dream big so you can achieve big things. 

Don't waste your time on people who don't deserve you. People that bring out the best of you are the only valid option.

I am always saying that there is nothing that the road can't heal. I truly believe this. One voyage as often as possible keeps the doctor away...and the sun in your life. We are what we give to other people. I've chosen to give love. So if you give me nothing, nothing is what you get. 

W A L K I N G    A R O U N D in Berlin parks, museums, bars  I found my lost equilibre. And it felt good, natural, it felt like home. Oh, and they also have huge Flea Markets! When Didi left for the rainbow community I didn't get it. It took me a while. But she was happy so it was ok. Now we're all just fine : in africa, europe or australia united we stand! We are bulletproof now :)

will

" where there's a will there's a way, you can get it
   the old daily grind drags you down, if you let it!"



stay curious!

enjoy the ride!

smile forever and a day!

Vis

In mod cert existenta ne este legata de vise. Aceasta minunata masina (unitatea centrala a PCului care este Omul) traduce subconstientul prin vise.


S-a dovedit in numeroase randuri ca viata mea este cumva legata de romanul lui Lewis Carroll : "Alice in tara minunilor".
Cand ne-am mutat in apartamentul asta cele doua colcatare era moarte dupa o lingurita eleganta, cu o coada lunga si o inima rosie in capat. Singurul meu gand a fost : "Off with their heads!!!" (da, regina cea rea). Singura corelatie de care am fost capabila.







Azi l-am visat pe cavalerul Reginei, cel cu cicatrice la nivelul ochiului, brunet, cu pumnal, misel, josnic.






Am visat ca Regina se uita la el cu ura si ii suiera printre dinti : "Sper ca nu ai facut-o din nou?!!!". El a schelalait : "Nu, Regina mea...". Atunci ea i-a smuls maneca de la camasa de lupta si sub ea : surpriza : Cavalerul isi tatuase un fel de plasa prinsa la rascruci cu mai multe cruci in care isi incrustase la nivelul pielii pietre pretioase mov. Poate ca suna sordid dar era atat de frumos ansamblul! Si eu cred ca am zambit in somn pentru ca mi-am dat seama ca fiorosul cavaler este indragostit :) Probabil ca visul nu a avut happy end dar a fost un vis datator de sperante, ca si cel cu fluturii albastrii.






Nu incetez sa imi amintesc acest citat, sa mi-l recit, sa mi-l intiparesc in inima si in minte :

Si cum asteptarea este inamicul meu cel mai mare, pe care nu reusesc (inca) sa il transform in prieten  :

 Incercand intr-una sa nu uit asta :

Weekend-ul asta au venit niste prieteni londonezi in vizita si a fost atat de amuzant. It was a true wolf pack I swear! Cei 3 londonezi care au speriat Strasbourgul batandu-se cu pumnul drept in piept si scandand, la unison, : "cougars, cougars, cougars!". Bien évidemmment niet cougars but it was a hell of a week-end. Si ce frumoasa a fost plimbarea de duminica dimineata cand am baut o cafea cu lapte  in Place Kleber, cu soarele incalzindu-ne in mijlocul iernii si a ultimelor ramasite de ploaie. Apoi am urcat pana sus, in catedrala, am admirat orasul si mi-am zis pentru a "n"-a oara ce norocoasa sunt ca locuiesc aici. And after that we went to the Place Gayot si am baut un Monaco si am vazut asta (din ciclul "music heals everything") :

si asta (nu era in povestea Danila Prepeleac de Ion Creanga o imagine asemanatoare?) :

E frumos sa iesi din cutia ta. Sa gasesti un slogan pentru campania unui viitor politician gen : "Cougars for change!" while eating fonDO :)) (sunt convinsa ca l-ar vota toata lumea in afara de copii si femei :) As fi un execelent leader de campanie electorala. And whoever says otherwise is just jealous! It was such a sunny day and I am happy that I shared it with such good mates!





" They agree that the sea
   is the best place to be!
   wondrously free
   they live happily ...


  ... music is the healer
      no matter who you are..."

   
 

I have some new shoes now and suddenly ...

... everything's fine!


De fapt, nu, nu mi-am cumparat o noua pereche de incaltari.
Dar mi-am cumparat o pereche de sireturi noi, rosii pe care le-am sortat la bocancii mei negrii cu nasturi rosii.


Iar azi mergeam spre centru, cu Guns urland in castile din urechi cand imi dau seama ca o bicicleta ruleaza incet pe langa mine. Imi dau jos castile si intreb : "Pardon?". La care domnul imi zice : "Buna ziua! De fapt, vroiam sa va spun ca aveti niste sireturi foarte frumoase! Sa aveti o zi buna!". Soc, balbaiala : "AAA, buna ziua, da, multumesc frumos si dumneavoastra la fel!".
Si a crescut inima in mine. Si apoi am fredonat asta :

(c)attitude

And a little bit more..."cats rule and dogs drool" asa zicea cartea, nu? Pacat ca eu sunt indragostita iremediabil de caini si am un "rau de caine" cu pisicile.






Someone said once that when God made dogs he just sit down and smiled! :) One of my dreams is to have a golden retriever or a labrador! And a house with huge windows and trees in the garden. And to be able to become one of the bests in what I do!

Today it was sunny! Freaking cold but sunny. I woke up at 6.30 and in 30 minutes I was out the door, running *walking really fast* to the train station. Lucky for me that I had enough time, because I almost mixed up the trains. But it was ok in the end. the crispy winter air made me smile. in my ears john was singing "imagine". "imagine ther're no countries, it isn't hard to do!". n=Next station : Brasov, please!





Ozzy and his "dreamer" followed. "gazing trough a window to the world outside, wondering it Mother Earth will survive, hoping that men kind will stop abusing her, sometime!"
A fost atat de greu sa ajung in punctul asta, Freud zicea ca omul ar face orice numai sa nu ramana fata in fata cu el insusi. E greu sa fii singur si fericit. Dar si cand esti! Iti dai seama ce tampenie a fost frica asta, cate ai ratat. Pentru ca, in realitate, nu suntem niciodata singuri! Fighting for my sanity, many nights of tragedy!











I was in my happy place : in a cosy train with a good book. Awesomeness. Am ajuns. Hochfelden! Welcome in the middle of nowhere. OK, let's do some medicine! Pacientii ma privesc cu neincredere : sunt tanara, sunt femeie, am tocuri si sunt machiata!! Dumnezeule!!! O oraseanca!! The horror! Dar se conformeaza, sunt singurul medic din zona :p

Vineri am fost impreuna cu grupul meu de prieteni la iluminarea oficiala a bradului de Craciun din Strasbourg (cel mai mare din Franta, Strasbourgul, fiind cunoscut ca "Orasul in care s-a nascut Craciunul"). A fost foarte frumos, a inceput cu proiectii video in ritm muzical pe cladirile din place Kleber dupa care a fost iluminat si mult asteptatul brad. Cu aceasta ocazie, va anunt ca s-a intamplat minunea Craciunului, ca sa o citez pe Celine : "Regardez! Mada est en train de pousser une possette! Vite, vite, il faut qu'on appele Cornel, il y a de l'éspoir, il peut encore devenir papi!" Haha, hilarious!


Va las cu un time laps ilustrativ despre Strasbourg, in perioada Craciunului si, DA, este atat de frumos!!

Azi am primit o veste minunata, minunata! O minune s-a intamplat! De-abia astept rezultatul!

Concertul Morcheeba

Strasbourg 13 Noiembrie 2013.
Am ajuns cam cu 10 minute inainte sa inceapa concertul si am fost surpinsa de marea de oameni de toate varstele, most of them geeks :)

In fata mea stateau doua tipe care...semanau cu noi (L always on my mind...) : aveau ruj rosu inchis, unghii negre, par lung, imbracate in negru si tipau si sareau si urlau cat le tineau vocile. Mai tii minte cand ne-am intors pe jos de la concertul Cargo din Livada si ploua? Era toamna si ne tineam de mana. Cantam tare si saream in balti. Alergam : "camaradul meu de sange, doar de tine imi e dor, va spun tot ce am in matze and I don't care about you at all...'cause I love chaos!"

She looks like an angel, she sings like an angel, she's Skye Edwards from Morcheeba!

" I thought that you were wise but you were otherwise!"

Am si cateva melodii filmate dar nu reusesc sa le uploadez :( it was awesome!

Asa ca va las cu un mini clip de la Paris, tot de anul asta!Lovely song, lovely lady, amazing group!

the dog days are over!

dupa 6 ani de facultate,
dupa 3 ani de rezidentiat,
un examen de licenta si o teza sustinute in Romania
un examen de admitere in rezidentiat in Franta
2 examene de sfarsit de rezidentiat si 2 mémoire-uri...ma apropi de sfarsitul rezidentiatului in Franta.
mai am 2 luni si am terminat rezidentiatul de Medicina Generala.
incepand cu anul viitor o sa fiu Doctor Specialist de Medicina Generala.



azi la ora 15h00 am dat, inca o data, TCS-ul, singurul examen picat in timpul rezidentiatului.
azi la ora 16h00 am aflat ca l-am trecut.

nu va pot explica fericirea nebuna care m-a invadat.
am sarit, am topait, am ras singura.
m-am intors pe jos acasa.

the dog days are over!
greul abia de acum incepe.
responsabilitatea este si va fi numai a mea pentru deciziile luate.
vietile pacientilor mei sunt doar in mainile mele.
I waited and prepared for this for so long that it seems unreal.

dezmagire mai crunta decat atunci cand am aflat ca am picat TCS-ul nu cred ca am mai avut din februarie, de cand nu mi-au fost validate 2 luni de medicina generala. anxietate. o frica reala ca, pentru prima oara, nu o sa reusesc sa termin ce am inceput.






am simitit nevoia sa fac ceva la care ma pricep bine : sa fug din fata greutatilor.
dar am ales sa le infrunt si a fost bine!
apoi mi-am adus aminte de Micul Print si mi-am dat seama ca desi multe mi-au mers nu bine in ultima vreme sunt si alte lucruri foarte importante care au mers in sensul bun al lucrurilor.

grijile noastre sunt intotdeauna atat de relative.
simplify, simplify and amplify your life!

In ziua in care am aflat ca am picat examenul de TCS am primit acest minunat cadou aniversar de la Anda (fosta mea colega de facultate de la Cluj, sora de suferinta in ale Medicinei, medic rezident de obstetrica-ginecologie in Germania, for the moment :)) and I felt blessed! 

Si voyage-ul la Paris a fost minunat, cu un concert Travis exceptional si cu vizitarea muzeelor Guimet, Quai Branly, Pompidou si a Centrului Brancusi :)

I am alive again! Si fix intr-o sapatamana, concertul Morcheeba! Pampampammmm.