Car crash

remember, remember the 6th of December 2014 because that was the first day of the rest of my life : I received the gift of life the 2nd time.

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How today changed my life.

Today I had my first car accident.
I am physically fine. No contusions. Just my ego : broken.
I'm fine, everything's just fine but I am in a shock state which I think it's normal.

I was coming back from Nancy and at some point I was entering from a small road to the highway and my car start spinning. It happened so fast. I spinned like 4 or 5 times and hit the safety bar.

But while I was spinning, I realised that I'm out of control. I was spinning, my hands were clenched on the steering wheel, and my mind was...blank. For the first time in my life I had no idea whatsoever crossing my mind. Nothing! But I am pretty sure that I've seen a rainbow and I am sure that the song playing on the radio was "Beat it" from Mickael Jackson.

Like a robot I put on my security vest, I got out of the car on the other side as on my side the door was deformed, I put the triangle 5 m away from my car. Got back into the car and called the cops. And after a car stopped, the man took me out of the car, on the other side of the road. After what seemed to be an eternity (20 minutes) the cops came, moved my car, filled in the rapport and after that a big truck came and took us (me&Mona, my car) to the service. They told me that it's probably better to buy a new car than to repair Mona. My heart was broken. This is my first car, the first important material stuff that I bought with my own savings since coming in France. It has a big emotional value as it was a gift for my parents.
While I was thinking how should I give my parents the bad news that they don't/won't have a car anymore the truck guy told me :
" Anyways it's just a big  pile of metal! You don't realise how lucky you were that you didn't hit another car/other cars. You could have been dead/handicapped or you could have killed someone."

And then it hit me : he was so right! I was so lucky! I am alive!
But while I was spinning, I realised that I'm out of control. I was spinning, my hands were clenched on the steering wheel, and my mind was...blank. For the first time in my life I had no idea whatsoever crossing my mind. Nothing! But I am pretty sure that I've seen a rainbow and I am sure that the song playing on the radio was "Beat it" from Mickael Jackson.

This was my Saint Nicolas gift for me : the value of life (of course I could have done this a different way but I like pushing my limits and on the other side it would have been less life changing, just another brick in the wall). Dramatic pose. Oh, the fans!


Latter edit (the 9th of January 2015) : MONA is alive, she was saved by my beloved Hizo, our car "fixer" since ... forever. Love, peace and respect because he has the most awesome gold bracelet ("your job is your gold bracelet", Romanian saying).

passion with a stranger

call it love, call it whatever you want if it suits you, take what you need, take everything that this world has to give you and you won't owe anyone a thing 'cause it's said and done...go on now and have fun!







sometimes you just have chemistry.
sometimes you don't feel anything at the beginning and after that it comes slowly.
sometimes you have love but you don't have chemistry.
if you have chemistry and love...you're kind of blessed!

it's been like I've been trapped under the ice. nothing to lose, nothing to gain... no regrets! just memories! as many memories as possible!

When in doubt, drink Champagne! :D

Mederic tonight is the night we'll fight 'till is over! So we'll put our hands up like the ceiling can't hold us! :D

Job! Magic pills!

Stras my love!

The old crib! Pe vremea cand aveam o terasa ce bine eraaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

couch surfing

Despre couch surfing am vrut eu sa povestesc de ceva vreme dar cum e un subiect pasionant, I saved it a special place.
Couch surfing = surf pe canapea = poti calatorii chiar si cand ramai la tine in casa.
Culturile fac parada la tine, pe canapea.
Vizitezi in medie o tara pe saptamana. Poti avea si o mica incursiune gastronomica in tara respectiva, in functie de oaspetii pe care ii gazduiesti.
Aflii modalitati eficiente si ieftine de a calatorii.
Inveti sa fii fericit cu ceea ce ai.
Majoritatea couch surferilor sunt oameni luminosi, care au calatorit mult, raspundesc good vibes all around them without doing something special. Oamenii astia te coloreaza, te imbraca in sentimente si cuvinte calduroase. Sunt unafraid givers, genuine believers, dreamers!
Am inceput sa fac couch surfing in 2008, in Franta. Imi povestea o gagica din Mexic ca a facut asta si ca a fost fain ca asa a putut sa viziteze si alte orase din Franta, asa, low budget. Am fost sceptica la inceput but I gave it a try! And how it blew my mind! It was and it still is so fucking awesome!
Din 2008 fac asta cand am timp si spatiu necesar. Am cunoscut aproximativ 100 de oameni din diverse tari in perioada asta. Cs-erii mi-au permis sa vizitez orasele ca un localnic ci nu ca un turist. Asta este unul dintre avantajele cs : vii ca un turist si pleci ca un localnic.
Este atat de fain cand ai casa plina de oameni care vorbesc limbi diferite, au opinii divergente cateodata dar toti sunt de acord asupra unui lucru : pace in lume! Culori si fericire pentru toti! Fara gri, razboi, tirani!
Suntem proprii nostrii stapani si alegem sa traim asa cum vrem. In lumina sau in umbra, in dragoste sau in ura, invatand mereu sau inchistati in convictii ancestrale.

We could all live somewhere over the rainbow if we would want to! :)



Si este atat de reconfortant sa intalnesti oameni care gandesc ca tine! Care zboara, cad, se tarasc, se ridica, zboara iar si incearca sa nu isi piarda increderea. Care cred ca un om poate schimba lumea! Care la nivel individual isi fac corect treaba in societate!

Sunt amuzante discutiile despre biserica, politica, traditii pentru ca intr-un final ajungi la concluzia ca peste tot este la fel. Suntem toti oameni, pe aceeasi planeta, sub acelasi soare, cu mai mult sau mai putin acelasi mod de functionare.

Stiu ca sunt oameni care nu sunt deschisi la CS. Sunt oameni care ma intreaba daca nu imi este frica sa fac asta, daca dau peste un psihopat? Dar do we really know each other? Putem spune ca noi cunoastem persoana de langa noi? Eu as zice ca uneori cunoastem bucati din oameni, cele care ne convin cel mai frecvent, dar niciodata pe cineva in totalitate. Si atunci ce avem de pierdut? Numai lucruri bune si oameni minunati avem de pierdut! Open your heart, open your house and you will be wonderfully surprised.

Drumul este viata noastra si cunoasterea sensul existentei!
It takes an ocean not to break!



Asa ca sper sa fiu capabila sa fac in continuare CS, sa gazduiesc oameni si sa fac surf pe cat mai multe canapele!

Urmatoarele destinatii, pentru luna ianuarie : Roma si Frankfurt!

iris, iris steaua mea

și nu vreau ochii să-i închid
cu lacrimi obrazul tău ating,
să nu uit o clipă din iubirea ta...

ore-n șir să te privesc
când adormi,
eu mă trezesc

și nu vreau ochii să-i închid
iar depărtarea s-o cuprind
nici în somnul meu nu vreau ca să te uit...

un cer senin aș vrea să fim,
fără nori va fi mereu!



iubirea ta e grea
și ne va sufoca
iubirea mea-i un dar
și nu e în zadar
o,da, e magic

VINO CU MINE ACUM
PRIN ANII CARE VIN
VINO CU MINE ȘI LASĂ
CERUL CA DESTIN

Iris e Iris nu sunt foaarte multe de zis, este formatia mea de suflet si atat.
Daca zici adolescenta zici Iris.
Daca zici prietenie zici Iris.
Daca zici emigrare zici Iris.
Daca zici durere sau iubire zici Iris.
Iar facultate inseamna tot Iris.

Iris, Iris steaua mea!
Iar victorie inseamna de asemenea Iris.
Are un gust dulce-acrisor Franta. De cele mai multe ori este mai mult amar decat dulce sa nu fii in tara ta dar uneori este for the best. We all do choises. The most important is to stick to 'em if we believe that it is the real deal, not the funny rapped faked presents gave away by crazy clowns.
We are the only ones that know what's best for us : not the neighbour, not our parents, not our bf/gf, not our friends. Us just us. We need to find our path by ourselves. To discover our innerself. And only when we will be stripped by all our layers we'll be true to us and to others.

Shine away crazy star, crazy diamand!

time after time

Uneori ma gandesc la prieteniile rupte de-a lungul anilor.

unele in tacere

altele cu mult zgomot pentru nimic

reprosuri, acuzari, nu ai fost o prietena buna, nu ai stiut sa asculti, mi-ai tradat increderea

this might sound cheesy

but at the time it wans`t

intai a fost roxy, apoi a urmat andreea, apoi a fost ana

pe roxy nu am inteles-o nici in ziua de azi

andreea a disparut ca o stea cazatoare

iar ana, ei ana, cu ea a fost cel mai greu, inca imi mai lipseste si ma mai gandesc la ea si la orgoliul ei stupid

caci nu am gresit cu nimic! si,totusi, mi-am cerut scuze, din tot sufletul!

dar ana nu a inteles asta niciodata!

iar zilele astea in timp ce conduceam mi-am dat seama de un mare adevar

"I will never regret you or say that I wish I didn`t met you because once upon a time you were everything I needed."



:)



time after time you there for me

1) roxy a descoperit o molecula super importanta

2) ana canta rock

3) andreea probabil s-a casatorit cu vreun mahar si merge la spa in austria

Si ma bucur si sunt mandra de toate 3 and I miss them like hell.

Dar timpul trece, apa curge, pietrele raman.

SOD ED ELIZ

Am o miscare browniana in cap.

Mi se invart gandurile, se amesteca, se bat, se iubesc, ma obosesc si it`s a funny thing.

Should we go outside?

Cand lumea iti zice sa renunti ca n-ai dreptate si tu mergi inainte. Stergi lacrimi, indoieli, nu vrei sa-i auzi si, mai ales, sa ii crezi.

Keep on walking, Johnny.

Nu stiu ei ce zic, copile, orasul e departe. TU NU MA PACALESTI!!! AM SA AJUNG ACOLO!!! M-ATEAPTA STRADA MEA SI CALUL DIN MARLBORO!. BATRANE, ESTI FRICOS! GASESC EU SI STRADA TA.





Priviri in oglinzi si soapte in noapte.

O alta viata de-as mai avea tot pe tine te-as cauta.

Oameni cruzi si rai dar I rise above. But there is a limit until I can raise above.